Resurrection Sunday 2020

Refiner (feat. Chandler Moore and Steffany Gretzinger) – Maverick City Music | TRIBL Music

Why this Song?

If you asked me yesterday if I like this song, I would say, “Yes, but it’s not my favorite.” I love love love Steffany Gretzinger, but I’ve been cycling through a few of her other songs nonstop the last few days.

But on this Resurrection Sunday, Holy Spirit led me to play “Refiner” all day.

Earlier in the day . . .

During a Facebook Live for this special day, Dr. Don Lynch talked about Issachar’s pivotal decision.

“Issachar is a rawboned donkey lying down among the sheep pens. When he sees how good is his resting place and how pleasant his land, he will bend his shoulder to the burden and submit to forced labor.”
Genesis 49: 14-15

Dr. Don gives a powerful message about pivotal decisions, and if you want to hear more, you can listen here. The culmination of the message was asking the question: As a believer, are you willing to go all in with your life? Are you willing to submit everything to the Father in service to Him?

At the end of the message, Dr. Don called for tithing and offerings. He made mention of sacrificial giving. The phrase touched my heart.

I’d already tithed for the month. I wanted to give more, but I felt the brakes by Holy Spirit without knowing why. For some reason I wasn’t supposed to give at that moment.

Weeks Ago . . .

On March 30, 2020 I woke up from a dream about a cleaning rain that was coming to heal. I wasn’t sure what it meant precisely, but when I reported my dream to my spiritual father, I said, “It would be cool if it happened on Easter.”

Worshipping Outside

So after morning worship, after the Resurrection Sunday service, after a lunch of bread and oil, after a nap :), Holy Spirit led me to take “Refiner” outside with me.

There’s something special about worshipping outside. You’re worshipping God in His creation, outside anything manmade. Even though His presence will come to meet you anywhere, it’s nice to be able to go out to meet Him.

I laid down on a blanket, looking up at the sky. I felt the warmth of the sun on my face. I put “Refiner” on my phone, and let it saturate the atmosphere.

The Power of Lyrics

I started singing the lyrics.

LYRICS
If the altar’s where you meet us
Take me there, take me there
If you’re looking for an offering
It’s right here, my life is here

I’ll be a living sacrifice for you

Pre chorus
You’re a fire
The refiner
I wanna be consumed

Chorus
I wanna be tried by fire
Purified
You take whatever you desire
Lord here’s my life

Verse 2
If your glory wants to come in
Let it fall, we want it all
Lord your fire is consuming
Fill this place, set it ablaze
I’ll be a living sacrifice for you

Pre chorus
You’re a fire
The refiner
I wanna be consumed

Chorus
I wanna be tried by fire
Purified
You take whatever you desire
Lord here’s my life
Clean my hands, purify my heart
I wanna burn for you, only for You

Take my life as a sacrifice
I wanna burn for you, only for You

Lyrics taken from TRIBL

When the song ended, I replayed it. And when it ended again, I replayed it again. The song is over twelve minutes long, but I listened to it three times. I kept getting deeper and deeper into worship until I was crying, begging for God to “cleanse my hands, purify my heart.”

Steffany G. has a beautiful part at the end where she sings:

Burn me Beautiful
Burn my Lovely
Burn me Righteous
Burn me Holy

I was reaching my hands up to the heavens. I was singing to God, and it felt like He and I were the only ones on the earth. I was out in the open, singing to the heavens, but in my heart, it was God and I alone in my secret place.

Pledging My Life

The more I sang, the more I knew that I was pledging my life to Him in a profound way. The pledge wasn’t coming from my mouth or my mind. It was coming from my heart.

I was afraid of His fire. Anyone with a healthy fear of the Lord understands the gravity of requesting His fire. Anyone with a healthy fear of the Lord understands the cost of submission to God. Issachar saw the good things that came from God, and he was willing to submit to forced labor because of it.

In that moment, with my hands and voice raised to the heavens, I pledged my life to God. I’d pledged before, but was pledging again with a deeper level of truth. I was afraid of His fire and afraid of the cost, but His perfect love drove out the fear.

Cleansing Rain

And towards the end of the third repeat of the song, I felt a gentle sprinkle of rain land on my face. I looked up and the sun was shining through the trees. Up above me, there was a small white cloud that didn’t seem capable of rain.

I kept singing with a smile on my face, feeling rain drops pitter patter on my cheeks. “Cleanse my hands, purify my heart.”

The cloud passed, and up above me, the sky was completely clear and blue.

6:20 PM – Where is the rain coming from?

And the raindrops still sprinkled my face. . .

How Good is His Resting Place

Two weeks ago, God sent me a dream about cleansing rain. And when I said it would be “cool” if it came on Easter, He heard me. When I submitted to Holy Spirit to worship outside, God brought the cleansing rain, better than I could have imagined. It wasn’t a cleansing rain for the earth in that moment, it was a special rain just for me.

God met me in my secret place, and the rain told me that He was with me. He heard me. He loved me.

My voice isn’t great, or even good. (I’m working on it.) But that doesn’t matter to God.

My voice comes from the heart, so it’s pleasing to His ears.

In that quiet moment, God made me feel so special and loved.

Contagion

As I wrapped up my spiritual bliss, I sat up and took in the world around me. While I had been worshipping, kids had come out to play. I heard a basketball bouncing in the street. I heard new music coming from two different neighbors.

I like to think that my open air worship ushered in His presence, which had an impact on the people around me.

When we worship with genuine hearts, we give Him a place to show up. And when He shows up, beautiful things happen.

Cleansing in Scripture

Dr. Joshua Todd, my spiritual father, says that when things happen in your life, you can find them in scripture. I’ve gotten in the habit of using the Bible to try to interpret my dreams, or to find wisdom that can help me.

I looked up “cleansing” and let Holy Spirit lead me to the Scripture He wanted me to see. I found the story of Jesus healing the leper.

Then Jesus ordered him, “Don’t tell anyone, but go, show yourself to the priest and offer the sacrifices that Moses commanded for your cleansing, as a testimony to them.”
Luke 5:14

Would you believe that last night, Holy Spirit commanded me to read about the sacrifices in Leviticus? Would you believe I fell to the floor crying this morning, because of the gratitude I had for Jesus’ sacrifice for us? Instead of sacrificing a lamb each time we sin, we need only ask for forgiveness from the ultimate lamb sacrifice. Would you believe that I wrote about the very story of the leper on February 17, 2020?

Offer the Sacrifices

When I read Jesus’ words, I felt like the money I had wanted to give earlier in the day could now be offered. How much more meaningful was it for me to be able to give money to God after this beautiful moment with Him?

Offerings are meant to be given freely and from the heart. Today was the most beautiful and precious offering I’ve ever given.

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