“I felt my heart calling out to the darkness. I lived for moments like these. Moments of seemingly infinite freedom, standing on the edge of danger. Nothing else I experienced was powerful enough to shake the bondage of life.”Set Free: How a Jiu Jitsu World Champion Found Jesus
For as long as I remembered I would run to the hills to get away from life. Whether it was the ocean or mountains or a forest.
People were too painful, life was too stressful, and buildings were too confining. I was always looking for an escape.
Trapped in the day to day, I was caught in the despair of “Is this all there is?” Same people, same job, same routine. Life felt like a prison sentence.
But when I got into nature, I was confronted by breathless beauty. And my question shifted to “Why can’t life be more like this?”
It was in nature that I was confronted with the mystery of infinity. I saw it in the vastness of the stars in the sky, and the minuscule details of insects on the ground. At the time I didn’t believe in a Creator, but how could there not be? The love and craftsmanship was evident in every detail.
The world I’d escaped from seemed like chaos, but out in nature, everything made sense. Everything seemed to have purpose and order.
“For since the creation of the world His invisible attributes are clearly seen, being understood by the things that are made, even His eternal power and Godhead, so that they are without excuse,because, although they knew God, they did not glorify Him as God, nor were thankful, but became futile in their thoughts, and their foolish hearts were darkened. Professing to be wise, they became fools.”
Now I can’t look at creation without seeing the Creator. How foolish I had been to think it could have been created any other way.