Last night I attended Level I Freedom Ministry, and the message was about how discipleship is a constant cleansing walk to live free and stay free. Even though Jesus ensured our victory on the cross, living on earth is a constant battle with an enemy who crouches at the door to pull us back into spiritual slavery.
Today I’ve been feeling the battle raging. I was tired and weary, and as I thought about posting a blog, I had no motivation to draw from. I’ve been sleep deprived for weeks, and the wind and waves have been howling.
I heard the voice of my spiritual forefather Dr. Don Lynch saying, “99% obedience is still disobedience.”
I knew I had an assignment to complete, but no reserves. I was running on fumes.
“Lord, if you don’t show up, I won’t be able to do this. I’ve got nothing to give today.”
The further I go in my cleansing walk, the more I’m put into situations and assignments that require grace to complete. Grace is enabling power. When we flow in grace we can do things we can’t do on our own, and God gets all the glory.
It’s okay to be weak, because God is our strength. It’s okay to need help because Holy Spirit is our helper.
One of the things I love about the Book of Psalms is that they can start with a bunch of complaining, but as the Psalmist pursues God they find themselves in praise and worship. Selah.
That’s how good God is. His presence shifts us to people we could never be on our own and do things we could never do in our own strength.
Here is the scripture Holy Spirit brought to me today, as I encouraged myself in the Lord:
Thus my heart was grieved, And I was vexed in my mind. I was so foolish and ignorant; I was like a beast before You. Nevertheless I am continually with You; You hold me by my right hand. You will guide me with Your counsel, And afterward receive me to glory. Whom have I in heaven but You? And there is none upon earth that I desire besides You. My flesh and my heart fail; But God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever. For indeed, those who are far from You shall perish; You have destroyed all those who desert You for harlotry. But it is good for me to draw near to God; I have put my trust in the Lord God, That I may declare all Your works.